I’m planning to spend a lot of my hard-earned money on Big Time Rush’s summer tour.
It just feels right. I was saving up to buy a handbag, but that seems a bit pointless now. Music is such a huge part of my life, and seeing BTR live really evoked memories of what made me fall in love with music in the first place. I’ve been to more gigs over the years than I can remember, but for some reason BTR sparked something new in me.
One reason for my sudden love and desire to see them again, I think, comes from the fact that the guys and I are the same age. Seeing others similar to myself succeed highly makes me want to challenge and raise my own goals and ambitions.
Secondly, they really went above and beyond my expectations. I went alone to the show (although I did text obscene things to some people, haha), so I actually had the opportunity to just watch them perform. I rarely let myself do that as I always get caught up in the craziness, and it meant a lot. They had so much stage presence, and they genuinely looked like they were having the time of their lives up there. I felt like I was a teenager again, like nothing could go wrong. I didn’t notice anyone or anything else, my attention was completely focused on them and the music.
It was only after I got home that I realized how much I missed feeling so carefree. I’m such a self-conscious, self-deprecating type of person that it’s hard for me to feel like anything is ever truly okay. And as cheesy as it sounds, in that moment, I swear I was alive for the first time in a long time.
———————————This post really wasn’t supposed to turn into what it is. But, I’m kind of glad it did. I don’t care if you hate Big Time Rush or think boybands are stupid. It’s less about that than the idea that music can do so much more than be listened to. It can change your perspective on things (not just pertaining to music), and it can make you feel emotions you thought were long dead.
I guess what I’m essentially getting at here is that I truly hope everyone gets to have an incredible experience like I did. You’ll know when it happens, because it just feels different yet absolutely perfect, like it was meant to be all along.
